Refections on the past year

I guess we all do this around about this time of the year. Looking back on the good and the bad and trying to work out what 2010 will bring.

Looking back :-

♥  Left my job after 10 years – thank god

♥  Sold our house and moved to the countryside

Looking forward:-

♥  Holidays in the USA and Thailand ( and Turkey – don’t tell my sister !)
♥  Having saving for the first time in my life
♥  Looking for a new job – does anyone what to employ a 50 year old HIV worker?
♥  Cub learning to drive
♥  Staying well and getting fitter – yes I will be using the bike once the bloody snow has gone!

Most of all a stress free life (more reduced stress), no more doing a job that I was being to hate (not the people more to do with the organisations politics and backstabbing). Not having to worry about money all the time (that ones a difficult one to let go off).

And lastly – my HIV – its very easy to use the excuse of not being near a good clinic to let things slide. As you all know I find it hard taking the pills, I just don’t get this take them and you will stay well for longer crap.

They have become a whip to punish me with, if I don’t take them I am letting Cub down as he worries I might get ill. I feel bad if he asks me if I have “taken my pills”, I hate myself as feel that I have let him down.

Yet this is still not a motivator, what the fuck is wrong with me?

Happy 2010 …………..