Warning – “diet related treatment effects”

I have always been a “big boned” kind of guy. When I was younger it was called “puppy fat” as I got older it was called “stubborn puppy fat” and now that I am much older I am called a “Daddy Bear”.

I have had weight issues all my life and have lost weight and put it back on for years. Have been to Weight Watchers, Slimming World, you name it!!! Mostly I have been the only guy at meetings. It seems to me that men being over-wieght is not taken seriously, it seems to be OK to be a man and over weight. But for me its a constant nightmare, I am unhappy with my body image, get depressed and end up comfort eating. It just goes around and around, the more depressed I get the more I eat, the more I eat the fatter I get.

I am guessing  I weigh around 279 lb.  which for my height is not good. I have been on and off diets for years, have gone to slimming clubs. My weigh has gone up and down for years, the most I have lost is 84 lb. But of course it went back on …. and more.

I am a great worrier and when I worry or stress then I eat. So just recently I have been eating for England, hence I am now the size of a small country. Shopping for clothes is a nightmare. Being so fat its difficult to get clothes to fit, going into men clothes shops are a nightmare, their XXL labels are a joke, you still need to be Kate Moss like to get into them even with an XXL label.

The shop assistants look at you like you are some kind freak! I tend to shop on line, however that is hit and miss too!

Today 3 tee-shirt came through, great, trendy ones too, great, all 2XXL, great, but none fitted! Well they did if I wanted to look like a over stuffed sausage. Is instead of reaching for the food I decided to reach for Alli.

Alli is an over the counter slimming pill (slimming aid). It stops your body from  absorbing the fat in the food you eat. It has its side-effects (orange oily stools, how nice! – diet related treatment effects).

I start them in the morning as, I have 2 weeks to my USA holiday so I am hoping to have drop a pound or six by then. I will still have loads more to lose, but by losing some before I go, I hopefully will not put on to much while away.

All this talk of slimming is making me hungry !!!  I am off for my last “fish and chips” for the next few months !!!

Yummy !!!!